What saved me tonight:
1. GoSurf50 (for the much-needed data)
2. Grab (for the much-needed ride)
3. God (for the much-needed protection)
I watched Avengers: Endgame tonight (alone, of course) and it was such an epic movie with a beautiful, neatly tied-up massive story. Everything went well, except my commute going home. There were no buses going to Dasma or MOA in Ayala so I decided to ride the Alabang route and just get off at South Station like I’ve done a few times in the past. This was around 11:00pm already.
Unfortunately, the bus did not go to South Station and I got off at the very last stop which was somewhere near Star Mall and in the middle of Alabang, which I have zero navigation skills for since I’ve never been there. I was terrified because it was a scary area (there were beer houses around) and an unfamiliar turf late at night. There were no buses or vans going anywhere near my place. The van terminal I saw was for Bicol route! I crossed two overpass bridges and I was absolutely scared deep inside because all sorts of scenarios were already going through my head. I was half-expecting the whole time to just suddenly be stabbed or mugged, but the Lord is so good, He kept me safe the whole time.
Finally I decided to stay where there were people, instead of wandering about. I went back to the Bicol terminal and stood there while I try to calmy book a Grab ride. The first driver cancelled my booking but thankfully the second one did not. The pick-up point that the app automatically picked up was called Evie’s Eatery and I didn’t even see such sign where I was standing. Fortunately, after several messages to the driver, we were able to find each other. The ride cost me P503 but I didn’t care anymore; I just wanted to go home. (I thank my privileges for affording me to go on that very expensive Grab ride.)
It was such a terrifying experience and also broke my heart a little because more than anything, I felt so alone during that half-hour navigation of finding my way home. I thought to myself, “How can someone possibly have no one?”
But I tried to brush it aside. I console myself by thinking I’m such a strong and independent young woman. I can watch a movie and go home by myself, no matter how scary it turned out to be.
Still, I believe the Lord will give me a partner to face all these things together in the future. Someone to hold my hand and walk with me as I try to find my way home. Until then, I just need to be brave and never forget to pray and have a grateful heart. And maybe avoid going home too late.
At the end of the day, we all just want to find our way back home, whatever it takes.